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Ever feel completely overwhelmed? I am at that place today. I feel like the last 2 weeks have been this blur of circumstances that just won’t let up. One thing after another; great things, bothersome things, big things

Family - it’s the end of the school year and it’s recital heaven, it’s also lots of evenings away from work, or household tasks. Everything is a mess. Dinners are rushed. I can’t complain because I adore every minute I can be part of my Kate performing. I just also feel that my day to day has completely lost it’s rythym. I find I feel this time of year with all my heart; joy, tears – perhaps it’s that an end is nearing, a transition, bittersweet. I tend to feel a mega sense of gratitude at this time of year; schools, teachers, friends and all the richness they have brought to our world. My son is going into his junior year at College. I can barely believe this time is passing by so quickly. I feel like I could cry at almost any moment. It’s not a mortified cry – just a happy grateful cry. Does that make sense?

 
Health - I have rec’d one layer of diagnosis re: my wrist injury – my lunate is dying, sortof like when a tooth gets hit that turns black. And my ulnar is too long and is aggravating my lunate -  one issue being trauma from my car accident, the other could be the way my anatomy is.  What does all that mean? It means my hand hurts all the time and has no strength. As it stands 19 hours of time into getting this diagnosis – each time I head over to cook county hospital it’s another 6 hours or so. Talk about loss of work time. I may have to consider more hours into an agressive OT or PT program, or surgery. Surgery has been what I have been trying to avoid all along. All of this sometimes cripples me, literally – I get scared thinking about it and wondering how will I cope, manage and persevere. I remind myself that I at least have my hand , I can use it – where before I couldn’t, that is is enough to humble me and my complaining – sometimes I just feel so gosh darn whiney about it all. 

My son had his wisdom teeth pulled yesterday. I was asked to be the designated driver and boy am I ever glad I was there for him. The kid just didn’t realize the post care or the intensity of removing 4 impacted teeth.  So he is here and I get to be a mom, which I love. Just shifts the weekend a bit. More lost time. Not complaining. Just wondering how to manage it all.

We had a scare with our michelle and her heart. She is perfectly fine, yet for a moment in time the reality of her being seriously ill, with a new baby was more than I could bear.

So many are dealing with health issues around me, I find myself tremendously grateful for my work and the services I can provide, the difference my products can make and the quality of life that follows. I am so lucky ot love the work that I do.


Technology – the love hate relationship I have with this machine I rely on as much as I rely on breath has been a real pain in the you know what. Won’t bore you with the what nots, but I have lost all my data, my main data loss being my email address book, my mailing lists for my business and all the files I use for work.  Everytime I think of another file I can’t access anymore I get his indescribable lurch in my stomach. Each time I attempt to rebuild one thing another thing breaks down. I am working blind, with my hands tied behind my back and feel very useless and deflated. I have so much to take care of and don’t even know where to begin. When I get this overwhelmed I shut down. The “I can’t” monster takes over. 

Let’s write a blog post instead. Seriously – if i didn’t sit down and sort my head and heart out this morning I was going to scream

Opportunity – with all that said, some absolutely amazing business, blogging and speaking opportunities are knocking on my door.  I find myself not able to respond with a jubilant yes to anything! Instead they are oh, that’s nice – how the heck am I going to manage this. I wonder is this circumstance or personal sabatoge?
I am making my way to my personal living almost one year after my second divorce. I am proud to say I am even making it on my own. I have to really remind myself of this. Yet the reality of it still has me frightened most of the time. I spend 1/2 my days trying to take care of me, somehow throwing in a little work on the side. That is no way to be as a business professional.  Unfortunately this is what my life looks like right now. I don’t know how to change this.

Fear, Worry, Pain, Emotion, and Stress.  Lovely.  

One day at a time comes to mind. 

I am grateful for this blank post space to help me sort what it is that had me so overwhelmed today. I bet all of you in some way have had more then your fair share of life getting in your way circumstances. I appreciate that by me expressing here, some of you will reach out and offer support or care. I also love that my musings somehow may offer someone else a sense of not being along with whatever they might be dealing with.

Thus the beauty of blogging and the community that thrives from it.

If you are experiencing a certain life’s journey and care to share, I’d love to offer support and care.

P.S. Joanna Young of Confident Writing - does your country really look like this? Would you adopt me?


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Karen Hanrahan ~ Wellness Educator/Nutritional Consultant/Blog Publisher
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